Love in Denial~
(This story is about (boy)Jamie and the main girl (And seeing how I don't like the name Jill... the main girls name will be Debbie) So anyways, I'm going to have to rate this T because of the language... And this is a Angst and Romance (lovey dovey) story.. so if you don't like that crap... don't read it.. .fair enough? I think so... Comments! please... I like getting them.. bad or good.. ^^; )
'It seems Jamie has a crush, though he's in denial even until the end about it.. And what happens when this Daniel gets too much for Debbie to handle? And what happens when Jamie seems not to feel the same way about her? Eep...! Read to find out! '
One winters morning and a chilly one at that.... I believe it was the 23rd, anyways... I walked out of my newly furnished home.. complete with a soft coat of paint Blue to be exact, Third story... I couldn't be more proud of myself! In fact.. the first year was almost over.. and my rival farmer hasn't even made the slightest effort to compete against me... but.. she has been oddly nice recently.. I even agreed to goto the Fire Festival with her... but that doesn't mean I like her... right? Maybe she just wants someone to go with her to the Starry Night Festival, I guess no one wants to be alone on a 'romantic' holiday... right? Hmm...
I made my way slowly around my farm land taking care of my everyday chores while thinking this; watering plants, feeding, grooming, and talking to the animals... Once finished I glanced up wards only to see my rival.. dead in front of me.. like she had been watching me the whole time. Her hands pulled in front of her and her head was slightly lowered. I arched a brow and slightly tilted my head to the side now watching her curiously. "Um... Good morning..?" I half questioned still surprised that she was here. My dog wandered to my side slightly barking up at the girl only to have her move back slightly. "Oh... its okay... down boy.." I scolded my dog looking back to the girl waiting for her to at least say something.. Silence was killing... at times, like when the people just pause while lingering about, rather annoying. Sighing slightly only to blink as she slowly moved closer.. hmm... perhaps a little too close. "Ahh... Debbie... what are you doing...?" I looked at her my voice sounding more nervous then I really was. I swallowed hard as she now stood directly in front of me as her nose came to my chin. Slowly she inched her head up wards to stare at me as she brought her hands to press together in front of her. "Debbie..... is something wrong..?" My tone remained in the same rhythmic note as I watched her looking for some facial expression that would tell me what she was thinking.. or doing rather..
"Jamie... I...." She spoke in a soft angelic note as her eyes seemed to plead twords my own. "I want to... to know something..." She shifted in place slightly but her stare never seemed to weaver from my own. I would have sighed dramatically if at this point it wasn't already dramatic. "What is it Deb...?" I winced slightly waiting to what she wanted to know... Silently my mind started to panic. What if she was starting to get serious about me? What would I do? How would I know how to act? Her tone interrupted my thoughts as she began to speak again. "I want to know.. what your plans are... for tomorrow night... I mean... I.. ah..." Her stuttering tone made me smile.. but only slightly. "Debbie.... I'm not doing anything tomorrow night, I'm aware that its the Starry Night festival.. and if you like, I'll come and keep you company. How does that sound?" I told her in a very un-natural calm tone.. in fact.. I couldn't believe what I had just said. Right then and there I felt my heart skip a beat, she smiled up at me as her mood seemed to quickly change as she nodded cheerfully. "Alright! I'll meet you at the cliff tomorrow night then!" She smiled only to bow slightly before trotting off down the forest-like pathway. I sighed.. hmm... Now what? Slowly I shook my head, I still had some wood cutting to do... I better get to it then...
~The next night~
I waited patiently at the mountain's summit at the cliff, a railing embraced the surface of the cliff so that anyone was able to peer over the edge to take a look at the town below. I sighed only to turn around hearing a short "Evening..." In a small tone. I turned my straw hat dipped slightly against the bridge of my brow as I couldn't help but smile. "Hello Debbie..." She made her way over to me gazing out over the town. "Wow... what a view!... " She said as if she was amazed at the current scene, stars lit up the wide spread sky. She leaned over and smiled at me tilting her head slightly as I slowly nodded yet blushed at how close her face was to mine... in fact.. her eyes were closed. I blinked watching her expression, my heart was racing within my chest. She paused as I just stood there like the goddess... a stone statue... She then looked to me only for me to become even more alert in the brisk winters air. "Aren't you going to kiss me...?" She whined. Woah... she WAS serious. I guess I looked a little bit more horrified then I actually was because she slowly shook her head moving away from me. "Ah... Debbie.. wait..." I said of course without knowing or paying much attention to what I had said. She slightly frowned as I felt my heart sink into the middle of my gut, her expression made me feel ill... about myself that is... I dismissed my thoughts quickly sighing in the process.
Slowly I moved twords her embracing her tightly even though I knew she wanted how ever badly to push me away. My cloak must have been warmer than her own clothing because she nestled up to me quickly. I couldn't help but feel at ease at this moment.. infact... I was happy... Gently I pulled away from Debbie only to smile down at her as my hand shifted to cup her chin pulling her lips to press gingerly against my own. I wasn't sure how to feel at this point... but my emotions must have over-whelmed me... My own lips lingered gently against hers as my digits feathered against her pale yet warm flesh. She moaned slightly as I pulled away breaking our short yet well remembered kiss. "Jamie...." She blushes looking up at me as I offer her a smile. "Happy Starry Night Deb..." With that we both left for the night... walking back to our own farm lands... without a word of phrase...
~The next day~
I woke up the next morning strangely happy to be alive for once. I pulled myself from my bed checking the weather forecast for the day. "Great.. more snow was suppost to fall..." I mumbled only to exit out of my home. Glancing around I noticed that Debbie was no where to be seen... part of me wanted to see her cheerful expression every time I awoke... Sadly, this wasn't so..
Later in the day I had been wandering around the forest looking for herbs to ship for more profit when I noticed a single winter flower lay under a large tree. Staring at it.. made me think of Debbie... and my heart sank to my gut again, just like it had the night before.. Slowly I shifted to turn to head home when Debbie seemed to appear out of no where... just like the days before, like she had been watching me the entire time. "Deb..." My tone trailed off as my orbs widened as I watched her happy expression. How could she be so happy? I hadn't seen her basically all day, how could she stand there with that silly grin upon her face like it was nothing? She smiled walking twords me as she tilted her head to the side. "Jamie, thanks for going with me to the Starry Night festival!" I nodded and stared at her... slightly coldly might I add. "I'm sorry I didn't come see you this morning... I was busy making you this..." I blinked only to be handed a large layered cake. "Ah... um.... Thank you..." I slightly smiled but shook my head. "But I don't like cake... I guess its the thought that counts, if you want you can still have it..." Debbie's expression changed to a quick frown as she nodded. "Oh.... okay.. well... no.. you have it.. feed it to your dog or something, I guess.." I felt crushed by the sound of her voice... though she was probably crushed at what I said too. I sighed nodding putting the cake into my bag before looking over Debbie's now depressed features. "Jamie....." She paused speaking without looking up to me as her eyes cascaded twords the snow. "Do you.... do you... Like... me...?"
My eyes seemed to narrow though of course I hadn't meant for them to do so... and sadly... at the point feeling how bitter I was feeling I shook my head. "I uhh.... " I know I was hesitateing... but what the hell for? Did I like her, or not? I wanted to shoot myself in the head, thats how rotten I felt. But before I could do anything Debbie's expression quickly changed again as tears started to form from her eyes. I slowly took a step back in the white snow as it layered the ground. "Why don't you love me...?!" She called as she was crying at this point as I stared at her in almost disbelief... What was I suppost to do...? What was I suppost to say?! I panicked.. but it was too late.. Debbie had ran off in the direction of her farm. I fell back in the snow sitting upon my rump sighing folding my fist together at one side.. the other pulled to cover my face... How much I'll regret admitting this.. I wanted to cry... My thoughts consumed me... and just in time too. I looked up quickly the snow began to fall as fluffy flakes started to stream down from the sky. "Debbie..." Then it came to me... I knew what I felt... I pushed myself off the ground and with a jolt of agility I ran after her calling in the process. "Deb!!" I panted, one hand pressed to my straw hat to keep it from blowing off as I ran through the snow leaving my foot prints behind me. Finally I had caught up to her at her farm pulling her by her arm quickly to look at her. "Debbie.. please...." I panted softly as she did too.. but hers mostly from crying I would guess.
Debbie looked up at me like she was hurt.. terribly hurt.. I shook my head slightly taking her hands in my own. "Debbie... you didn't give me a chance to say anythin-" I was cut off when she yelled up at me. "I don't want you to have to stop and think if you love me! You should be able to tell me if you do or don't directly! Without hesitating!!" Warm tears streamed down her cheeks as her hands trembled within my own. "I'm not hesitating now! Please... just hear me out...." Again I could feel myself coming close to tears as well. "Debbie.... I don't like you... I love you... and I keep falling more and more in love with you everyday... I want to marry you.. and I want to give you a family and be able to be a supportive husband for you... and give you what you need.... Deb please... I know I don't speak my mind... but I will never keep secrets from you, I promise.. and I may not speak my love for you.. but I hoped that my actions would be enough. Give me a chance to show you.." My eyes stung with the sensation of wanting to cry so badly... but I held it in.. Debbie was at tears again no longer with anger as she quickly embraced me around the waist. I sighed feeling my body shake.. I guess it was from all my emotions being pulled together. "I love you Jamie...." She mumbled her face buried within my cloak, I pulled my own arms around her holding her close to my frame. "Deb.. I love you too..."
We stayed like this for a long time.. despite the cold and despite my lost denies of love...
(What'd you think?
Sappy.. weird.. leave a comment!~ perhaps I'll make a story with the dude main character and the girl Jamie? hmm... suggestions...)
Sappy.. weird.. leave a comment!~ perhaps I'll make a story with the dude main character and the girl Jamie? hmm... suggestions...)
